I could have pre-written this post.  I could have scheduled it to be live on the blog today while I was scheduling my other posts for this week,  but you know what? I didn't.  And I am not sorry one bit for not posting before 10 am on the "typical" blogger schedule. I wanted to write this post, and have it go live once I was finished.  Now, I apologize for my blabbering, but let me explain...

Although I was a very young child, I still remember (slightly) the time 9/11 happened.  It's not something that somebody can honestly forget.  Sure, if you know me, you know that I hardly remember anything from my childhood; ask me about 9/11, though, and I do. I remember bits and pieces, nevertheless it is still something. It was a tragedy going on in New York, and panic country wide from the knowledge that a terrorist attack was happening. My mum told me that she was frenzied, trying to get out of her [old] job at General Motors (i.e. a very tall building in Detroit, MI) to get to my sister and I.  She (as well as many others) thought the terrorists were targeting tall buildings. Well, fast forward, the day just went downhill. I don't know why I am recounting the day's event as if you are unaware of it, but I am only doing this because I want to express how deeply saddened I am by everyone affected (directly and indirectly).  This goes out to all of the people who lost loved ones, friends - just anyone in their life during that horrible time. This sadness also reaches out to Americans because we have had to experience and deal with many changes. Security increased.  Airport procedures became stricter. The lives of many were changed just by knowing what happened. A lot transpired just because of that crazy attack.

My sister and friend told me today that they felt a little sad because of the significance of today.  A little.  I cannot blame them because they were not [directly] affected. My feelings on the day...oh my; my feelings (not comparing it to those who were directly affected) is heart wrenching.  Sure, I did not lose any of my loved ones or friends in that attack. Sure, I was not close to that attack.  Sure, I can seldom remember a lot of the things that happened throughout that day as I was a very youngun' when it happened.  However, I can tell you that from the parts that I do remember, and the recountances from the people who were close, in it, or affected by it has made this day one of the saddest in my life.  I am a very sympathetic and empathetic person (in this case empathetic). So this day (September 11th) has always been a dread in my life. People wonder why I feel this way. I could say that I don't know why, but that would be a lie.  The truth is, I feel this way because I hurt for the people who hurt, and I wish that this day never had to happen. I don't want people to remember this day and be sad. This day never should have happened...but it did. There is no changing it. And that saddens me.  It upsets me that so many people lost their lives for no reason. I am even more upset that the people who did this took the easy way out by ending their own lives, too. No.

The only consolation that I have from what happened today twelve years ago is the fact that the leader, the one who planned this attack, was caught and killed.  He had to be on the hide out for the rest of his life before his own ended. Now, (I may be wrong; feel free to correct me) I believe that if that is how you have to live your life after doing something horrible, you just should not do it.  I guess he had a "point." Whatever. His point ended his life. And many other unnecessary deaths went along with it.

I don't know if any of what I just said makes any sense to you.  You may disagree on some points on what I wrote.  However, these are my feelings and I needed (not wanted, but needed) to express them, get them off of my chest. And to every and all person(s) who lost someone, lost lots of loved ones/friends, was injured during, or anything; I want to (even twelve years later) say that I am sorry that this had to happen.  I am sorry that this had to affect anyone.